Thursday, October 30, 2008

On a Lighter Note....

On a lighter note than yesterday, I forgot to mention that Sam had his Pack Meeting for Scouts on Tuesday and finally got his Wolf Badge. He ALSO got a bunch of other patches for segments he has completed, and 6 belt-loop things to put on his Scout belt. Very cool. I also got to go up with him and he got to pin this little Wolf pin thingy on my shirt, because of course if it weren't for the moms, the Scouts would never get patch one-we all know that! I have my issues and problems with Scouts, and still maintain that they are neither a working or single-mom friendly group, BUT: he looked so beautiful and proud up there getting all his Bling, and I swear it is worth it just to see that look on his face. He is now a Bear-and even though I am dreading all of the activities and the work involved, for his sake I am also quite excited. It has been good for him, and in some ways good for me, and I just like to watch him interact with other little boys his age. I might not fit in with their parents, but he fits in with them, and nothing could make me happier.


Last night, Owen was on a bit of a rampage, just being two and hungry and it has been a long week...so he was just, how do I say it, acting like a jerk. In and out of the kitchen, throwing things and crying and begging for either me or Eli to pick him up. You all know how they get. I can, for the most part, tune it out-dinner HAS to be made, whether Owen wants to be put down or not, but he was driving Eli nuts. Finally, in exasperation, Eli turned to me and said, "Mom, I don't know how you did it with ONE kids, much less four!" and hefted Owen up onto his hip and walked out. It made me laugh out loud because it was just such an adult thing to hear coming out of his mouth, and it also made me feel a little glow inside. There are times when each of the older ones "get it," and they have a glimpse at times of why I am sometimes short with them or annoyed or just tired. I don't expect them to take care of me emotionally or any of that, I don't expect them to step in and do my job as a parent, but when they can recognize that I can't be in thirty-seven places at once and help-like Eli did last night with Owen-it helps everyone. As the result of his help with the Baby, I was able to get dinner done in a timely manner, and we all ate together and had a rousing time helping Sam with his homework. Have I ever mentioned that we are all quintessential nerds? Sam was assigned the task of finding as many homophones as he could, and between the four of us (because, you know, Owen was just hollering out random words, being only two), I think our final tally was 67 pairs of homophones; pretty awesome, and we had a great time doing it.

I feel really good today. I think the Weight Watchers thing contributes greatly, as does the fact that I am finally, FINALLY, getting over the bronchitis. Whatever it is, the last two mornings I have woken up feeling fairly rested and with this vaguely remembered thing called energy-wow. I had forgotten what that felt like! I have been doing some other things in addition to the Weight Watchers in an effort to take better care of myself; I have been making the time to soak in a tub every night, even if for only 10 minutes, because I read somewhere that it helps the body relax and sleep better-and it seems to work. I might have to stay up a little longer (because God knows that having the door open and close thirty bazillion times by the kids is not relaxing!), but when I sleep better it doesn't seem to matter. I have been walking just a little further and a little faster each day, which also helps immensely.

And emotionally, I feel pretty good today, too. It isn't that anything has changed or is different, at least outwardly. Instead, it is a feeling that I am right where I need to be, and I am working really hard on accepting things as they are right this minute instead of 1. trying to project, 2. worrying about the what-ifs, and 3. trying to take over the reins. This is, as any regular reader knows by now, a constant issue in my life. No, issue isn't even the right word, but it IS something that I have to work toward. It is so easy for me to take on the world's problems, try to fix everyone and help everyone, and as a woman in recovery, it is my job (so to speak) to live the way my God would like me to, take care of myself and my spiritual health, and simply do what is in front of me. When I neglect those things, I go nuts.

So it is a good day. I enjoyed my early morning jaunt to the school again, and really, really enjoyed my walk to get the mail this morning. I am glad to be here today, on this earth, living and breathing. I am also really, really enjoying the feeling of anticipation that comes from the fact that our election is in less than a week. I cannot WAIT for the weekend when I can begin calling the people on my list to remind them to VOTE. I can barely contain myself from going over to my voting precinct right this second and camping out until Tuesday. And while you all know that I am totally in love with and voting for Obama, you don't have to agree with me (even though I am right) just get off your ass and cast a vote. This is a pivotal moment in our history, and I will personally be disgusted if any one of you don't vote.

15 comments:

liz said...

I love reading posts like this!! I'm glad things are just looking up all over the place.

And no worries, love, my ass will be at the polls on Tuesday despite Virginia's best effots to keep me away!!! (Crazy 'we lost your registration when you moved' nonsense. They're not keeping me out!)

April said...

Awesome post!! I'm jealous of the homophone homework.
And you ARE right, my dear. And so am I :)

Love you.

Cheffie-Mom said...

Congratulations Sam! Very cool on all the badges! You go mom!

Kristin H. said...

Congratulations to Sam. Well done :)

FreedomFirst said...

I love that last line.

I must say that even I can't imagine how you do it, and I feel ashamed to tell people I don't have time for this or that when I have mountains more time than you do. I'm well aware that it is an organization issue for me rather than a time issue; but how can I tell people that I can't commit to something because I will be sure to forget it? Lol. All the notes in the world don't help; I simply forget to check my notes. Gaaahhhh!

Anyway, keep on keeping on! You are doing much better than I would in your shoes, I assure you of that.

Gabriella Moonlight said...

Okay wow, you have four children and you are so incredibly gifted with your blog...you amaze me all the time!!!! You are like Wonder Woman and Electra Girl rolled into one!!! I adore your blog more and more and thank you for your posts~!
G

Tara R. said...

Congrats to Sam that is an impressive accomplishment. My daughter was active in Girl Scouts for years. I know how much work these kids put into earning their badges... kudos to you too mom. I've already voted... yay me!

Jennifer said...

It's great to hear you're feeling good and so full of energy--could you send some my way? I'm going to need it for tomorrow--I'm tired just thinking about trick-or-treating.

I think you're right about taking a hot bath-I've noticed that when I do that, I fall asleep much more quickly.

Can't wait to vote OBAMA!!

LarryG said...

my son did cub scouts it was a super experience.
and you are right... the mom's make the pack go!

Xbox4NappyRash said...

I love the idea of you watching Sam so proud of himself.

Nice.

Jason said...

""Mom, I don't know how you did it with ONE kids, much less four!" and hefted Owen up onto his hip and walked out"

That is so cute.

Jill said...

Kori,

Thank you for the things you say. By reading your posts, and the way you project your feelings, it helps ME make a little more sense of life. And plus, I'm happy to read you're happy.

Mama Smurf said...

awww Eli "GETS" it!!! Special moment indeed!

I'm now down 3 pounds! The race is on! (of course, I'll probably gain it all back this weekend)

Ronda's Rants said...

Yeah...Sam way to go!
And Amen...everyone please vote..let's not let just a few people decide who our next President will be!!!

Dingo said...

When does Sam get his Batman utility belt? Now that's something to be proud of. Just think of how helpful it would be around the house!

I've been reminding my students for the past week to go vote. As exhausted as I am with all this election coverage, I am so excited for the changes I see coming.