For weeks, literally, I have been engaged in this ongoing battle on another web community to which I belong; I have been expending a lot of mental and emotional energy in an attempt to be both heard and understood, and have been up nights wondering just how I could make one group of people in particular stop and see the damage they have been doing...when finaly, a couple of days ago, I just decided that it wasn't worth it anymore and chose to remove myself from the community.
Am I a baby, as one woman said? Apparently so; I guess it makes me a baby to have my single-parenthood thrown in my face every time I make a reference to it. I guess I am a baby for telling this bitch that I don't want to hear her goddamned Scriptures every time I turn around. I guess I am a baby for believing that Gods to look like whomever you WANT Him to llok like, and for believing that with or without "religion," we are all kind of supposed to be nice to once another and care for each other.
I guess I am too idealistic, and will fight on principle; I think, though, that I am going to have to accept that it is true that one person can't change anything, and that we are all in it alone. I have decided that I am no longer even going to attempt to be a voice for anyone but myself, I am no longer going to try to defend other single mothers, nor am I going to try to open anyone else's minds. Me leaving that particular community was the best thing I could have done-if only because I shoul rmember that there really is no such thing.